I Believe

I know that you're constant
in an ever-changing world.
I know that you're comfort
in relentless, raging storms.
And I know that you're hope
when nothing's worth fighting for.

But when things change
sometimes I panic
When storms rage
sometimes I hide
And when i can't see past the pain
sometimes i close my eyes

I believe,
help me with my unbelief.

by: me

Empty Pages

I flip through empty pages
twirl pens still full of ink
too hard to force myself to feel;
to force myself to think.

Line by line the emptiness
makes me rethink my life
no tear-stained entries to relive;
no happiness, no strife.

Just unrecorded moments
of feelings left unsaid
Unsure of what the past has taught;
Unsure of what's ahead.

by:me

Dad

I didn’t know how to smile
Until you smiled at me
And I didn’t know how to laugh
Until your joy filled up my soul
And I couldn’t even walk
Until you took my hand to guide me
And I’m not sure how to keep on walking
Without you here beside me
But when you spoke of love
You spoke of one eternal
And I never had to wonder
It was right there In your eyes
And everyday you’d smile
Just one day closer to glory
And I don’t have to listen very hard
To hear the angel’s uproarious applause
'Cause when you sang to Jesus
It was heaven here on earth
And when you gave to others
You gave everything you were
And you’ll live on here forever
Through all the lives you touched
And you’ll never be forgotten
Because you were loved that much
And I’ll always be your little girl
For every day I live
And I’ll not forget your love for my mom
Every time I watched you kiss
And I’ll always see your beautiful eyes
In the face of my baby brother
And I’ll always see your passionate spirit
In your feisty eldest daughter
And I love you with everything that I am
But Jesus loves you more
And we know that you loved Jesus
With all your heart and soul
So, we know that you were wonderful
But Jesus saw it too
And He looked down from Heaven
And couldn’t live one more day without you.

by:me

How far...

How far does love go?
How hard does it try?
Can it withstands the tests
of distance and time?
Does it sacrifice wants?
Is it willing to fight?
How far does love go?

by: me

what we're meant for

love and spontaneity
dreams and everlasting
joy and all the laughter
that's what we were meant for

dancing in the clouds
exploring secrets of the ocean
hearts that beat together
those are what we long for

big cars and bigger houses
someone to take the trash out
relationships at best, unsure
is what we end up settling for

by:me

I crumble under weighted stares
That remind me of past pain and fears
The resurfacing is worse I think
Than initial tears that stain the cheeks
The saltier each one becomes
The deeper the grave it's dug up from

by me

It Can't Always Be...

It can't always be
It can't always turn
into forever
it can't always stick
it can't always last
into enternity
it can't always be...

by me

Weathering Love

The wind has grown much colder here today
chilled by all the hurtful things you never failed to say
and laced with bitter memories that just won't go away.
The sun has lost itself behind a cloud
hiding from the world all of the rays that make it proud
and your love was just as stifling, filled with broken vows.
The ground has grown so hard beneath my feet
losing all the comfort of the plushy grass and earthy heat
like you stole the spontaneity of love, and reduced it to a package nice and neat.

This weather takes the moisture from my skin

dry hands, dry lips, dry heart; nothing can get in.

the only trace of moisture is a tear- a salty, bitter end.

by:me

Describe Love

There must be a word;
a phrase; an equation-
or simply a brief explanation.

A way in which I might convey;
might get across; or just suggest-
the way I feel inside.

It can't just be a gentle flutter;
a raging fire; a sense of wonder-
that words cannot express.

Then how would i tell it?
Describe it? Revive it?
When all I want to do is shout it?

by:me

Despite all the adversity
and those who look down their nose at me
I still believe predictability-
is really rather boring.



**A thought from me**

We Belong Together

What good is a life
With no one to share
The light of the moon
The honor of a swear
Will you try to live the way of which you speak
Taste the milk of your mother earth's love
Spread the word of consciousness you see
We are everything we need
We belong together
Like the open seas and shores
Wedded by the planet's force
We've all been spoken for
All this indecision
All this independent strain
Still, we've got our hearts on save, we've got our hearts on save
Someday when you're lonely
Sometime after all this bliss
Somewhere lost in emptiness
I hope you find this gift

Gavin Degraw

Dreams

If dreams are the impossible
And aren't entirely probable
Then dreams can't be unstoppable
And who would want to dream?

If dreams are so impossible
Then hope and love aren't plausible
And dreams would never be sensible
And who would want to dream?

If dreams must be impossible
Then dreamers are irresponsible
And the heart can't be reliable
And who would want to dream?

But if dreams conquer the impossible
And live out the incomprehensible
And make all wishes tangible
Then all would love to dream.


by: me

To Question Love

Where is love if not the heart
if not in every beat
if not the very life in you
what holds love from retreat?

But what is love if only lost
if swiftly swept away
if all you hold so dear to you
can fade within a day?

And when does love fade from the heart
if taken, but still remains
if it steals your very breath from you
when do you love without pain?

And how is love worth all the risk
if hearts just beat to suffer
if pain just grips and suffocates
what does love have to offer?

Yet, when is love worth all the risk
if it gives wings to fly
if it holds the key to every heart
how can love not be our lives?

-by:me

I'm a journeyer
a dreamer
i'm a passionate believer
and the world...
it tries it's best to box me in.

so i'm tearing down
the walls around me
breaking free of things
that i don't want to be

by: me